Simple as that. I can’t deny It still hurts when I hear things. I shouldn’t care. I don’t care. Maybe just maybe I still have that little hope/dream that one day your gonna come to me tell me that it was me who you wanted this whole time that I’m all you want that the only reason you leave it’s cause your scared, scared cause of what we had was perfect. That “forever and ever” was never a lie, that you miss what we had. That you will never do the stuff we do with anyone else. That it hurt you every time you saw me smile and you weren’t the reason why. That it killed you when I stopped giving a fuck a bout you. That I’m beautiful and worth every effort. That your not worth the tears. That your sorry for all the pain you caused me. That you want to spend everyday in summer together and have our high school faritale together…
But again, maybe I don’t want that. Maybe I am better without your dumbass. Maybe I’m just ready to tell you that you had me at the palm of your hands and you threw it all away.That I was all yours that I would do anything to make you happy but no you didn’t want me you wanted something else something better apparently.

But again… I am a fucking dumbass.